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( added to web site 08/28/04) 08/22/04 - Status report as of 08/22/04 [modified] & addition 08/26/04 - jellyfish (eeeuuwweeh!!!) in my GARDEN!!!!! 08/27/04 - Re: jellyfish (eeeuuwweeh!!!) in my GARDEN!!!!! NOTE: THIS DOES NOT NECESSARILY INCLUDE ALL THE EMAILS SENT OUT DURING THIS PERIOD
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What condition is Dave in and who has him?
RETURN TO TOP OF PAGE RETURN TO HOME PAGE "Small town community shows the Feds what it's all about" "Money's not the answer: quick catch up" "What's so nice about small? What's so nice about together?" RETURN TO TOP OF PAGE RETURN TO HOME PAGE I'm home now - exhausted! I couldn't have lasted another day without really blowing up. The hospital, the doctors, anyway, at the hearing yesterday were now saying that they really weren't sure if I was really "gravely disabled," the diagnosis they gave me at the hearing last Thursday. The doctor also said yesterday that "perhaps" my refusing to be "medicated," i.e., drugged, could "also" be possibly viewed as a matter of "personal preference." At the hearing yesterday, the police officer, Waterford Officer M. Willard, and "complainant," Ebon H. Vanborrhies, both of whom had reportedly said that I'd been found walking through the complainant's backyard with a flashlight looking for people who had been abducted admitted that that was not true. That had been recorded in the police incident report, Waterford Police Department Incident #2004-02371, - no, I wasn't arrested. It was also given as the "circumstances under which person to be examined was taken into custody" on the Police Emergency Examination Request , supposedly, that I'd been brought to the hospital for evaluation. (This request was completed by Waterford Police Officer W.C. Naholnick #35, who was not present at the hearing.) It was the thing that, supposedly, led the hospital to - in actuality, illegally - detain me from just about 1 pm 8/9/04 - the second anniversary of Dave's abduction, almost to the minute - until about 6 pm tonight. (Reference "History of Present Condition" in Physician's Emergency Certificate for No More than 15 Days Care and Treatment In A Hospital for Psychiatric Disabilities form completed by "examining physician" "Witt, M.D." (In a meeting just prior to my release, Dr. Catalin Pralea, M.D., explained that the "evaluation" he had conducted of me had been through his review of the medical records there at this facility. What this means is that not only he was using the incorrect information contained in that, but that I was not providing me with any opportunity for comments, explanations, etc., despite the considerable adverse impact action he would take, as a result of such shoddy, unprofessional and, possibly, unethical, practices, may have on widespread aspects of my welfare, including my emotional and psychological well being. Dr. Pralea, Douglas Brandt, M.D., and Ada Jemison, M.D. are the three doctors who signed the following 08/10/04 statement submitted to Probate Judge Matthew H. Greene:
None of these three doctors evaluated me in person. The only evaluation that was done in which I was a part was the one done by the Crisis Counselor in Lawrence and Memorial Hospitals' Emergency Room just after being brought there early morning 08/09/04. At the time, I was told that that resulted in a "favorable diagnosis" and, at the time, I was led to believe that I was going to be free to return home just after that.) At the hearing yesterday, it finally became the judge's (Matthew H. Greene) call - per him - that I was to be considered incompetent, or whatever label they were using, and the reason he was saying it was justified that I'd been detained, was because I'd knocked on the door of the neighbor's house across the street from me at that time of night, even though the person/people had supposedly just arrived home - the long story of my rationale I won't get into right now. In the meeting before I left, I believe it was the one that included Dr. Catalin Pralea, there was a comment that the court, also, was now backing off from what it had said. There seemed to be an attempt at negotiation with me through the "conservator" who, I was told, works for the court. A long story but, eventually, she did not approve the forced drugging of me which was given by her, by the court, and by the hospital social worker as the reason she'd been appointed in the first place. (Quick & dirty analysis, therefore subject to revision upon more careful reflection, is that she really wants to do the right thing but is also displaying signs of being, or thinking that she is, "under pressure.") She wanted to know if, if the hospital did not charge me all the $charges that had accumulated - probably about $20K - it was at about $8K, I think, on the printout I got about last Thursday - if that would satisfy me. I told her that there was also that I had to have all of this reversed so that it could not be said that I now had a "history of mental illness," etc., if only because it may jeopardize future endeavors of mine. I also pointed to the time lost in my work, which was at a particularly critical point just now, etc.. And, yes, there was probably more but I'm too tired of it all, for the time being, to even try to remember what else. Yes, hospital personnel continued in their usual protocol, possibly because they have not yet had time to have it thoroughly reviewed by Risk Management. My release is classified as "AMA" which is "against medical advise," and personnel was trying to go the route of recording that they have prescribed that I be taking 2 mg of Risperdal M tabs each day at 9 pm, but also said that they knew I wouldn't. It was just the charge whatever there at the time of my release who was doing that because, it seems and most probably was that, she wasn't really sure what she was supposed to do. They were also going to set me up for follow-up counseling. I told her that she should alert "them" that they may not want to continue to forward what should be my confidential information to what later may be found to be "disinterested" parties, pending the later outcome of all of this. They are also trying to put some of the blame on my primary physician. I'm not sure what that is all about and, again, right now I'm too exhausted to think about it. Yes, there are much more significant implications of all of this, of which they seem to have been finally also aware by the time of my release, but, right now, I'm too exhausted to determine if I should relay all of that, so I won't. There's a lot more to probably all I've just said. Right now, I'm just trying to get word out that I'm home. Marianne RETURN TO TOP OF PAGE RETURN TO HOME PAGE 08/22/04 - Status report as of 08/22/04 [modified] & addition Response sent in reply to email I received:
Well, that relayed in Re: illegal detainment in U.S., possibly to hamper anti-slavery efforts > 08/17/04 - I'm home [modified] is going to take some major effort to get straightened out, which was probably also one of the many, many reasons it was carried out, if suspicions are accurate. Yes, it's a very small town community and it is now appearing that the spg has friends in the local office of the CT Probate Court, as well - very complying "friends." (I wonder what they get in return for such cooperation.) Even though CT Statutes require that I receive copies of all of the paperwork that the CT Probate Court has supposedly issued against me, including the appointment of an attorney and, also, a temporary conservator to handle my "estate," make decisions for me regarding such things as "medication" and treatment I am to receive, etc., and also the final determinations that were made through the hearing, I have "officially" received nothing. ( I did, merely by accident, receive some copies by demanding copies of some of the paperwork in my medical records.) It was evident through my call to the Probate Court the other day that they are on the "look-out" for me, are very familiar with my name, and have specific instructions on how to deal with me. My call was to request transcripts of the two sessions of the hearing, something I should have before beginning to take action against some of the bills that I am already receiving ($425 bill received for the ambulance.) They are telling me that the person who had been coordinating all of this will now be out of the office for "a few" weeks. The call was turned over to someone who told me I have to contact my "conservator" to receive anything like that. Yet I have still not even seen anything official that proves that a conservator was even appointed and/or that it was determined that the court ordered a conservator appointed! Shortly after my call to the court, the "conservator" called me and "chastised" me for my contact with that office, my behavior, etc.. This is a total stranger who has not only, supposedly, been given such control of my affairs, and to whom, evidently, I am expected to be humbly submissive, she has also been given access to what should be my private and confidential records. As for Dave, I have not received any word since finally being released from my illegal detainment last Tuesday evening. There HAD been increased activity relating to the local trafficking operations, and possibly even Dave, in the week or so prior to my detainment. I was even hoping that he'd, somehow, escaped. That may also account for why what was done to me was done to me - yes, I facilitated it by going out that night, and going across the street to knock on my neighbor's door, but I'd been receiving anonymous emails all the week or so before that appear to have been warnings that SOMETHING was planned for me and/or for Dave, should he try to reach me. I am watched so closely, it will be very difficult for him to safely do so, even if he is now, freed. But I may have now received messages that additional victims have been taken, who are friends of ours, i.e., Dave's and mine. I may also have received messages that . . . . There definitely appears that efforts to hamper victim rescue, as well as helping to prevent investigation and apprehension of perpetrators, if only through what was recently done of me, have been beefed up recently. All of this makes it, again and again, so much more urgent that action be taken against this, . . . .. And, most likely, many are also possibly being additionally tortured and abused in retaliation for what perpetrators may be guessing of my possible recent actions and/or that of the local Coalition and other possible groups and entities, etc. Having such possible messages "leak" out are also intended to further threaten, intimidate and warn those who may be trying to help victims. But I don't yet know what I may be able to do, just yet. I feel that I am still suffering the residual effects of the trauma of experiences of my illegal detainment and it's aftermath, which is probably still unfolding. Thank you for asking. Marianne . . . .. From what I've read, [various areas are] considered by the U.S. government . . . hot spots for U.S. modern-day slavery, which means that probably [these areas, in particular, have] a very well developed and sophisticated network supporting this crime. . . . . There is also a chance that some local victims have been auctioned, or otherwise "sold," to other trafficking rings, which will also hamper tracking these victims' whereabouts and welfare. addition to 08/22/04 - Status report as of 08/22/04 & ____ : There are also additional indications that these sleaze may be (continuing to) possibly threaten/carry out forced prostitution/other sexual exploitation/other harm to a person's, even very young, children in order to coerce someone, gain his or her submissiveness and lure them into the control of these criminals. Yes, most likely, there isn't anything too low for these sociopaths, this scum among us, to attempt to carry out. RETURN TO TOP OF PAGE RETURN TO HOME PAGE 08/26/04 - jellyfish (eeeuuwweeh!!!) in my GARDEN!!!!! No, this isn't fun. Not in the least. Yes, I've come to know some really wonderful people - I think! I mean, if they are so wonderful, why is it that they seem to not be able to speak about certain things? And why is it that so many of these "wonderful people" appear to still be going along with - "charitably speaking" - shady business? Perhaps I'm only being human. Perhaps I'm just reacting in a normal way to something I've been experiencing for over two years that is just "abnormal"?! ABNORMAL?????? F___NG BIZARRE!!!!!! Can any of you relate to this at all? Can you understand what it is like to have things going on that are so unbelievable that your mind tends to want you to think that it is really only a dream, because things like this don't really happen in real life? Especially when these things are going on now and here even though you are in the same place you've been for so, so many years? When many of the people who may somehow be involved in this are people you've known for so, so, so many years - FRIENDS! - from even before I moved to this area so, so long ago? Do you know what this is like? Can you relate to any of this? Can you understand what this may possibly do to a person's mind? (But, then, isn't that most probably part of the reason these things are being done, or, at least, being done in a way that, if you try to talk about what is going on, those hearing it may need to say that you are crazy, that that proves that you are so - click! - don't pay any attention?) And, in the meantime, flip with her some more [yes, a copy and paste (c&p) from an earlier communication]:
And yet the sky still looks the same, etc.? And, yes, now I'm even starting to wonder where Dave's head really is. Yes, in between wondering what horror he's being subjected to right now, and yes, yes, very much hurting Nothing would ever change my love for him. So, so many people, especially most recently, have demandedly asked of me how much I really know him. Yes, I know and he knows how so much the horror of all of this has played in what we had a right to be experiencing, otherwise. We both know what that played in the way we were forced to try to communicate with one another. But, because of this, so much is missed or lost. There is so much that we try to communicate to one another that .... Is he still experiencing this horror - Isn't it enough that there are so many of our friends who appear to still be held? - or has he been able to escape? And, if he's escaped, why is it so difficult for him to be here, where I need him so badly - no, he can/would be able to speak for himself, if that were the situation, so I don't need to do so - why, why, if there are so many wonderful people in all of this, is it so hard for him to be here so that we can hold each other and ... etc., etc., etc. ???????? RETURN TO TOP OF PAGE RETURN TO HOME PAGE 08/27/04 - Re: jellyfish (eeeuuwweeh!!!) in my GARDEN!!!!! Hello, Sincerely, Hi,
_________ , Yes, I agree that one could say that, currently, there is no balance in the world that I have entered. I'm referring to the imbalance of power and influence of corruption and organized crime over people, such as myself and other innocents, who are both being targeted, or at least, victimized through that influence of corruption and organized crime, while being unprotected by the laws and other entities that are supposed to prevent and fight such influence of corruption and organized crime. One of the things that I am working toward, as part of the efforts in which I've been involved, is to help bring that world back into balance. I fully realize that, to some people, this may seem like an impossible thing to achieve. However, the only rationale I can think of that may support such negative thinking is that, once things and people get really bad, there is no way to ever right it. I don't agree with such negative thinking for a number of reasons - and, as you probably know, I can write volumes on all of those reasons. But I'll just relay two here:
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positive things to realize: Regarding what you say that "there is no shame in being supplemented via vitamins/medications to return us to center," shame is not the reason I've refused to be psychologically medicated nor should it be automatically presumed that what was trying to be forced on me would "return me to center." Based on the description of the effects and possible side effects of Risperdal, what Dr. Brandt said "they" (?) wanted me to take, and what was "offered" to me each night of my detainment, it would more likely cause me to be very much "off center" in a wide variety of ways - won't get into all of that just now. In addition to the rest of what was included in the re: illegal detainment in U.S., possibly to hamper anti-slavery efforts > 08/17/04 - I'm home [modified] version that you received, you should know that, although, "personnel was trying to go the route of recording that they have prescribed that I be taking 2 mg of Risperdal M tabs each day at 9 pm, " no prescription was written up for me that would enable me to acquire that after my release from that illegal detainment. And it's also important to be aware/remember that I tend to try to offer as much as possible of what is happening in it's "plain vanilla" form, rather than continuing with theories based on just my own analysis of those events. Readers often more highly value such conclusions when they arrive at them themselves, through their own analysis of situations. But the fact that, despite what may sometimes appear, I am often taking this approach is important to be aware/remember because it often requires readers to be aware/remember that deciphering may be needed on their part. As far as "return me to center," that is a phrase which also assumes that being not in "center," or the "norm" is not acceptable. This was actually part of the discussion that took place at the hearing between the judge and the doctor, etc.. It surrounded a question of whether me, or anyone, doing the type of things that many other people may not do/be willing to do should, automatically and in itself, be grounds for diagnosing me, or anyone, as having psychological problems. Things that were given as illustrations were that I've contacted various local, state and federal officials in these efforts, that I've devoted all my time and much of resources to them and - get this - that I believe that modern-day slavery exists in the U.S. (?) or it may have been said that because I thought it exists in our local area. (I don't recall all of that verbatim, mostly because I was shocked to hear that, there in a formal court hearing, that was actually being presented as an argument against my sanity, and by a "doctor," no less, who evidently specializes in psychiatry!) My having a copy of the "Coalition Information" page of the U.S. Campaign to Rescue & Restore Victims of Human Trafficking website, www.acf.hhs.gov/trafficking, helped shoot much of those arguments to hell. I got relatively little opportunity to speak in my defense. Most of what little defense of me was offered was by the judge, the "court appointed" attorney and, eventually, as you may have read in re: illegal detainment in U.S., possibly to hamper anti-slavery efforts > 08/17/04 - I'm home [modified], by the doctor, himself, for example, when he "said ... that 'perhaps' my refusing to be 'medicated,' i.e., drugged, could "also" be possibly viewed as a matter of 'personal preference.' " It was pointed out that, particularly in our local area, many people devote the same amount/type of time and their personal resources to the casino/gambling, and that the efforts in which I've been involved should "possibly" be seen as perhaps at least a little more worthwhile. The judge also pointed out the fact that my having become involved in these efforts was due to my "concern" for someone very dear to me should also be weighed heavily in considering if my behavior may fall within the parameters of the "norm." And, again:
Eventually, the "lasting" argument for my "imbalance" - the reason given that I was being released "AMA," i.e., "against medical advise" - was that I was refusing to take the "medication" that "they" wanted me to take due to my "imbalance." Kind of a Catch 22, huh?! So, that's much of that in a nutshell - excuse the pun - and, right now, there is still very much that has to be done before I would even be able to have the patience to do any other type of artwork. Again, thank you for your words. Love, Marianne P.S. - and, again, you've "inspired" another community email.
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